★花蝴蝶翩舞，但求落你眸中★

 

得不到的是不是就會特別珍惜？
                                                                               

好想讓你看清我的好，也許等你遇到下一個人就會明瞭。
                                                                               
女人就該裝傻裝笨，才不會心力交瘁。
                                                                               
但為何我總掛心你的生活起居？
                                                                               
相對自由就是相對失去，
                                                                               
那你渴望自由嗎？

 

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心! 始 終 如 一

 

 

 

                                                                               
聰明的人，
喜歡猜心，
雖然每次都猜對了，
卻失去了自己的心！！
                                                                               
傻氣的人，
喜歡給心，
雖然每次都被笑了，
卻得到了別人的心！！
                                                                               
在聰明與傻氣之間，
我該選擇那一個呢？
                                                                               
其實，
我最想擁有的是......你的真心

 

 

 

是不是男生一旦沾上了game
就會看不見外面的世界?
                                                                               
當你在玩game
我只想出去走走
不想留在你家
一點受到尊重的感覺都沒有
                                                                               
如果你這樣對我
我是不是也可以這樣對你？
                                                                               
也許對你而言
game的世界是讓你發洩的
我只能委屈在一角做電腦寡婦
                                                                               
看你玩得盡興
我只想收拾包包
輕聲漫步的走出去
如同我未曾出現在你的生命之中   

 

 

 

 

你要的自由 我給不起
                                                                               
我要的安全感 你給不了
                                                                               
我不懂你的想法
                                                                               
不了解我在你心裡的位置
                                                                               
或許是我想太多
                                                                               
也須該退回最初的位置
                                                                               
只是覺得很累 很累
                                                                               
起起浮浮的愛情 我沒有把握 也沒有心力去經營
                                                                               
累了 只想放棄

 

 

 

 

珍惜是什麼？
                                                                               
我想，你記不起來。
                                                                               
早把珍惜放在2005的冬季，從此，沒了。
                                                                               
                                                                               
是誰把你的心綁架？
                                                                               
是你 甘之如飴的遊戲
                                                                               
睜一隻眼閉一隻眼的忍氣吞聲，還能多久，我不知道！
                                                                               
                                                                               
總是要我隻身往返你那，
                                                                               
誰會讓一個女孩在深夜裡、嚴冬中抵著風寒？
                                            
我早不再奢求你的溫柔體貼，因我知道，那是種「奢求」，
                                                                               
連你的接送都是奢求，
                                                                               
遊戲、電視節目、課業……，曾幾何時，我被拋在最後頭，
                                                                               
窮追不捨能喚回什麼？徒增我心頭上的痛罷了！
                                                                               
「你愛我嗎？」「我……，不知道！」
                                                                               
如果連堅決相愛的信心都沒有，憑什麼愛呢？
                                                                               
不要再說你沒有資格愛我，
                                                                               
那是藉口，不是理由……。
                                                                               
                                                                               
我只能，幻想愛。
                                                                               
                    

 

                                                                               
兩年，改變什麼？
                                                                               
曾經，我溫習從前。
                                                                               
你沒變，愛沒變，
                                                                               
變的是時間，變的是空間。
                                                                               
那年的自己，以為是全世界最幸福的女人，
                                                                               
因為，望不見未來，預測不到轉變。
                                                                               
                                                                               
你摸摸我的頭，說喜歡直髮的那個我，
                                                                               
原來我們都是愛上當時的對方，
                                                                               
想起來，總讓我熱淚盈眶。
                                                                               
                                                                               
從前，握著你的掌心過冬，
                                                                               
此刻，望著窗外讓心放空。
                                                                               
說服自己，你有你愛我的方式，不強求，不放手。
                                                                               
                                                                               
歇斯底里，是你現在看到的我。
                                                                               
愛走離，不安全感逼近，叫我怎能平靜？
                                                                               
                                                                               
聚焦在你的缺點，也放大了我的弱點，
                                                                               
無法，不愛。
                                                                               
                                                                               
眼前放映我們的過去，那些努力留下的足跡，
                                                                               
是我唯一的記憶，

 

別   喊停。

 

 

命運的安排
                                                                               
精采換灰白
                                                                               
眼裡一片陰霾
                                                                               
掩蓋不住今天的失態
                                                                               
眼角溢出我的愛
                                                                               
走在沿海地帶
                                                                               
踩過的愛
                                                                               
隨潮水離開
                                                                               
沉進這片大海

 

像你遠遠的離開
                                                                               
直到背影不在
                                                                               
才發現對你的愛
                                                                               
無法釋懷
                                                                               
海鳥在沿海邊徘徊
                                                                               
始終離不開大海
                                                                               
蝙蝠在夕陽前等待
                                                                               
始終對黑夜依賴
                                                                               
對你深深的愛
                                                                               
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